Ok My dear friend, I am here to give you some genuine advice so listen. First things first, have a little bit of self respect. Seems like you are so attached to this girl that you need her by your side just to even define yourself. Look at yourself (literally) and think what your parents would think of you right now. Boy, they'd look at you and spit on your face for letting such a paltry matter get in your head. Man O man they'd be ashamed. The world population is what 6 billion? and nepalese population 30 million? and you're crying over one chic? Now lets get to your brain. Scientifically speaking Brother, you're addicted. You're no different than a smoker craving for a smoke, Crackhead looking for some crack, fatty looking for some sugar or masturbater looking for another crank. But the good news I have for you today is that your choice to become happy or depressed lies squarely on YOU! Now listen to me carefully, this is the meat. Your brain is made up of millions of what you may call neurons that hold your entire memory. The reason I say the choice is yours is because when you think of something, you make that neuron's attachement stronger. Lets say you're a constant masturbater, the neurons attachment for masturbation might be larger than your genitle. And everytime you masturbate, you will make this neuron in your brain grow larger and stronger and more of a chance you will come back and masturbate. In order to eliminate this addiction, the masturbatier most weaken these neurons for masturbation. He/she can easily do so by just simply not thinking about masturbating and rather engaging the brain in other activities such as reading a book. Just like in the case of masturbation, your brain has addiction to that honey of yours. So the neurons for you cheating honey is large and you support this by thinking more of her. Do you understand?? Its simple. Now in order to weaken these neurons you most try hard not to even think of her. The cells in your body crave for peptides generated by these honey's neurons firing. Now what you must do is ask her once and for all whether she wants you have your babies or not. Not, give her the big sayonara and just focus on yourself. we are pretty much the first Nepali generation exercising dating and going out before marriage scene. We are traditionally designed to the just point fingers and our parents are supposed to go get it for us and we're supposed to get the groove on only after wedding. So if we want to join the western fest, we must learn to take the good with bad. We must evolve to take breakups not so personally. Give it a shot! On a good note, you will get to see and play with atleast one more Pwu-Tang in life.