yeah, earning the first penny of your life is very hard. I remember myself sweating and didnt know what was going on when i worked for the first time. I said to myself, "what the hell did i get myself into??" Working felt so hard that time that i cant explain in here, but when pay day came and i got my first "mehanat ko $$" in my hands, it felt really good. I felt as if i did something, as if i achieved something, as if i took one step towards being independant, as if i learned one more lesson in life. I cried all the time that i worked and i smiled when i got that $$ in my hand. A wonderful experience, a moment to be cherished for the rest of my life.