Okie, dokie. As some fella suggested it might not be a good idea to flood her with email. Might be a wise idea. If by any chance if you are following up with this thread @ sajha. I'm speaking to you Pratistha. In this nation of such an immense freedom, things often don't work out as we expect. I was a poor man, not that a rich man now, in pursuit of that happiness that you and everyone was seeking. Hungry for a better life, dream to own my own car, a cell phone, a clean surrounding n environment to live in and the list goes on and on. o yea, even hot shower every morning was a luxury. Got almost all of those wishes. Unfortunately, i never realized wishes had quadrupled by the time they were fulfilled. Still, running n running a never ending marathon to catch up with those damned evergrowing wishes. N there is that pressure from everywhere to judge you by what you got n own, what you say or do or at least we perceive that way. I get so frustrated n mad at times. I vent it at my work, at school, with my frens(got barely a handful), everywhere i open my mouth. There are umpteen times ppl say I act strange. I don't know why they say it. Am I doing something they always wanted but never found enough guts to carry on with? I just seclude myself frm everyone but still it can't go forever. Then, I realize i'm just being dysfunct and slipback into that network that feeds u in pressure. Stress seems inevitable though can b minimized to some degree, one of my psychology prof keeps saying. Pratistha, if you were just taking your one of those times off from this crowd of demanding fleshes, it's perfectly understandable. I understand it and everyone will. It's perfectly a normal thing. Once u r relaxed n relieved, just report back again. Whatever some people might say or think, you just did something everyone desires either consciously or subconsciously. Everyone can relate to your situation with theirs even when they don't express it. It's just that some are good at faking smiles rather than acting on their true emotions. You can count on me in anyway u can realte. Write me through sajha if u get a chance n feel like. We might be able to find more things in common. Let's click it. P.S. I'm assuming, u have done this out of your own will not that any foul play is involved.