ChemicalX, i suggest you go to a Community Mental Health Center where they offer free services to people in these kinda situations. i don't know whether you're just writing it for fun or if it's reallly the case with you. you r "a danger to the community or yourself" and action needs to be taken ASAP. mental illness has several predisposing as well as precipitating factors. is just watching that movie"hostel" making you so? there must be some reasons for such dangerous intentions to be born in mind. you might take Clozaril or risperidone with your doctor's consultation. we don want any of our nepali frens to land in trouble .i heard some shooting incident with a limbu guy some time ago.b4 doing anything stupid,just think why u're here, about your goals.get help from frens. good luck to u.