hostel is sick movie man... i watched it when it first came out... i thought it was gonna be great and it was indeed till the 2nd half started... sick mofker man... anyways... knowing that it was a sick movie, and u being inspired by that movie a lil bit i think this is what you should do. where do u live? is there a river near by? i am talkin a big river, not little falls or streams... anywyas, if there is go and just toss urself over the bridge. if you can't find any, i am not sure how far ur from mississipi river. you can go there or u can check this river in maryland out. Susquehanna River. its pretty big.. it'll take care of you good... ps. good luck buddy!!