bit late?no re?oh well..next time later hai ;oP hehe.. yes there will be next time!!errr ok ok lets not talk about future..who knows about the future eh?all we can do is speculate?hehe anyways...been a while..(i feel so ..diff ppl might feel diff so duh!dun 'debate' on this ok!:@ ;oP hehe)..so yeah..better keep in short?;oP hehe ok 1stly...some lahure is still camouflage eh?secret mission?hehe..or recuperatin?from that stunt?oh well if it was one stunt we can say wat it was?so lets not start?cos if we do..we might get carried away?hehe anyways yeah we see about the MIA lahure in time..time alwys tell eh?tho how little it tells hehe..i mean little cos we wanna know more?but well how much control we have about time and the things it does?not much eh?hehe ok where was i?;oP hehe wahahahaa...dun mind me..just re read the post above hehe..duh!just wanted to seee wat things i shud 'concentrate' on hehe..u know..if i start 'commentin' on every thing i 'noticed' up there ..urghh :oS..and yeah i really really am hopin it be pretty short one by me :oD..and i will try on that ;o)..but how much effort i will put?or how much i will 'succeed' ..hehe that i guess i shall judge meself?;oP hehe.. ok ..before i wander off :oS hehe.. 6th/7th grade and Mother Superior(duh!if mother aint superior!who is?;oP hehe)..already talkn about socrates?:o|(btw whos socrates?:oS other than he is a man?isnt he?:oS ;oP hehe)..abui!:o|...must be quite a sch ;o)..with quite some students ;o) hehe..(and oh ur fren ..errr is it safe to call her that?;oP hehe..u know frens..wat they do ;oP hehe..shes busy at work eh?or who knows?snoring away?wahahahaah ;oP..the length duh!lets not even talk about 'content' hehe)..and yeah big skip here.. "Mother" and "Socrates" made me think of smthing..u know word 'association' :oS..hear/see a word(s) and next thing u know..reminds u of smthing and cant stop talkin about it?hehe..anyways yeah..bumped into one book long long time ago..and browsed some pages..it was wat socrates said..well the writer who wrote it..said it was said by socrates..so guess its safe to label it as socrates stuffs?its better to be safe than sorry eh?;oP hehe..dun mind the wandering :oS hehe.. anyways..it was how he defined that dreaded word 'love' hehe..u knwo tryn to explain to a someone who was askn wats 'love' and dyam..it was good!(not that i can remember the words/paragraphs/pages hehe)but someone knows wat im talkin about?pls pass some stuffs!i wouldnt mind doin some reread to refresh(yes!im not that kuyeko yet!:@ ;oP hehe..refresh me!!;oP hehe)..u know the thousands of definitions we have for that one word?..the way he talked about it..i dunno..its hard to disagree with him?or just so easy to disagree with him?both ways?;oP hehe....but yeah..for someone who dreaded that word(still do!hah ;oP hehe or does he?:oS ;oP hehe)..well it was put so subtly..that well..im sure anyone will def be thinkin in their head..tht they understood wat he was conveyin?..and now come to think of it..i dunno if he did 'talk' about Mothers love there hehe..or is it just me feelns tht makes me think mothers love was present there?hehe..u know feelns and the weird things it makes u think and do :oS hehe.. but yeah..if anyone sees where im comin from..if we look deep enuf..dun we find mothers love there?;oP hehe..i mean association?..need an example?how about the example of a 'computer'?..computer(esp these days) means we do end up readn..typin on one?and when i think about readn/typin in computer..can remember the many times mum was there..sayn smthing like..."ke paagal jasto haasdai type gareyko?" hah!suspicious wat i was typin/talkn with :oS hehe..and as always..it was just with frens ;o) hehe..... and when i think about that..oh well..i feel mothers love ..esp right now :oD hehe...guess im one of the lucky ones eh?one of the many many lucky ones :oD...it be nice if all had the same kinda luck..but urghh lets not get there?:oS hehe...dun wanna really feel negative right now ;oP hehe..actually duh!can i stop feeln that?can i ever?:o| hehe..its more like lets not show the negativeness/pessimism for once?;oP hehe..i try re kya ;oP hehe.. ok..lost in thots again ;oP hehe..skippped some again hehe.. dyam does anyone here kinda can empathize with me?i mean how much im tryn to stick with one thing/topic?cos urghh ..its pretty u know..weird?to kinda accept oneself..and not really accept oneself..to fight with oneself..to make peace with oneself..and urghh its a cycle that might never end?:oS hehe..ok that was crap!actually wat aint crap?im talkn about all the above!thats crap aint it? hehe so..yeah ..wanna know smthin?im tryn here to not put some demeanour..u know..one might be feeln smthin..but shows smthin else?hehe...i have a feeln that i do that a lot?hope so me feelns are wrong on that?hehe..oh who knows i just might be feeln that way right now..and not as 'always' as im feeln right now?pretty confusin?pretty is an understatement?ok..beautifully confusin?hah!sounds better?;oP hehe..the things we say/do when we feel we have anonymity eh?;oP hehe...not that i believe i do..i mean duh!its the net for gawdsake!..but yeah hopefully me frens are as brave as i believe(and hope) they are..dun wanna freak out any more?? wahahaha ;oP hehe.. and hah!shit!enuf of these 'hehe's!and these emotes!:@ oops :oS hehe..some habits are so hard to break!!arghhhhh!!..but wat would call a 'habit' ..a 'habit' one has got without realising(duh!do we realise its a habit when we start out!;oP..we know its a habit when we realise and cant stop?when its not easy to stop?:oS hehe..)a 'habit' of just thinkn negative...cos it kinda brings grins to oneself..some kinda sick joy?that it makes u feel good?tho smtimes it 'hurts' so much..it scares u!?:o|...but later..it before u know it..it feels good again?;oP hehe..and yeah u get accustomed to it..and tho one cant stop hopin one will be able to break that habit one day..one realises so much time has passed by hopin that?..more than one can count?hehe...and the worst thing is ..that habit seems to have negative effect on the ppl around u..the close ones?:oS... ok that was maha bs!wahahaha..;oP..skip!;oP...seriously!i shud later delete a lot of paragraphs!the whole post?wahahaha ;oP hehe.. wel u know..even if smthing was intelligible..if unfinished..most prob will never make sense.?how can it make sense..when it ain complete?..when it cant be completed?;oP hehe..and worse..that applies for smthin intelligible!wahahahaaa..so its all good we dun finish our BS ..aint it?;oP hehe smthin to ponder about eh?;oP hehe.. ------------ anyways u know wat..?i just came here to really say.. some nepaali.. exams over eh?but someone is not around?givin back wat one gets eh?;oP hehe..u know...with some lahure?;oP..hehe..just messn ;o)...summer is around..i can just think of those many many things one can be doin..or gettn ready to do..even gettn ready takes time..to do it?how much more time?hehe....and im just thinkn about nice ..fun things..lets not even start on the other things that can keep a person preoccupied/busy :oS hehe.. plus i guess..someone was feeln hyper hehe...got a few energy to spare ;o) hehe..and i guess nosey person will stay nosey!unless he goes for some surgery?wahahaha ;oP hehe.. why hyper and that energetic today?there could be thousands of reasons hehe...but i guess..most prob..im assumin here hehe..its cos u know mum's magic :oD....talkn with one just makes all the blues go away :oD...but then again..later..hah!thats the part that scares me!the higher one goes..the harder the fall?wahahahah ;oP hehe..but oh well..wat doesnt kill ..makes one stonger eh?tho more scared too ;oP hehe..yeah ..kinda had a talk with mum..duh!had been runnin away from that for a while :oS ...well..u know its kinda scary to think mum can 'see' thru all the demanour..even tho she is quite some distance away..there is smthin about mums eh?dun think so re?:@ ;oP hehe..not just smthns..many things!bhujio!:@ ;oP hehe...anyways..yeah cant believe one can feel that tired(seeing/experiecin is believin?hehe)..that when mum called and woke him up from his slumber..(had dozed off too!hah!..'tiredness' got the better of him?:oS hehe..)...didnt really talk much..salla dumba was just too groggy!!we are but humans eh?:oS hehe...but yeah..smthn made him get his arse up..and ring mum.. walla!oops old habits die hard ;oP hehe..i meant Voila!;oP hehe.. the blues are away for now :oD..hehe.. sooner than later..it wil come again..cos yeah we cant run away from them?hehe..just say i heard some more not so good news yest..and well..tho it aint really in me hands..i guess..one cant stop thinkin about it..i mean one way or another we are responsible for where we are?so its ok with me??but yeah thats where the problem lies!!it might be ok for me!but to others?esp ppl who cares..esp mum?:o| hehe...yeah shud be doin smthin about it..but told u about that 'habit' didnt i?:oS...and yeah ironies...one might be happy..and wont stop feeln that..but others?:oS..kya tension ho bhaney!:@..cant believe woke up in the middle of the night..3am..and well had to wake up at 5.30 anyways..and yeah couldnt sleep!:o|..cos the thots werent goin away!:@..bloody thots of dark clouds!:@...havent we all experienced that one way or another?..knowin we cant do anything..and yet we cant stop thinkin about them?and losin our sleep over it..and cant sleep..tho we know we need to sleep..for the day later..where u need all th energy u can get... sacchi ho...its hard to be alive!!!!!oh now come to think of it..i think weird thots did come yest..about wat if i cease to exist hehe...the weird thots that dark clouds bring eh?;oP hehe...it did bring some peace..the thots about not existin..but who am i kiddn?..one exstence we have..better make full use of it ;o)..carpe diem eh ;o) hehe...plus after dark clouds....well there is always a silver linin ;o) hehe..ok this sounds too positive for me ;oP hehe..but yeah...pretty am scared how hard will the storm hit this time :oD...but lookin foward to that day..(if it comes hehe)..when the storm passes by..and to check and see how battered one is..and if one is still standin?hehe..if one aint..then if one can stand..or will one try to stand blah blah blah ;oP hehe.. yes!tomorrow!who knows!but im pretty glad..im breathin right now!:oD..dyam the positive energy that just talkn to mum brings :oD...hope she didnt suck too much of me negativness thots tho :oS...dherai chinta garcha..syano syano kura ma :oS...and seriously..are we born to judge?how hard we try..there will be times..where well we will judge ..dun we?we might think its a petty compared to how much others do..but then again..why compare?humans eh?hehe...or is it just me..who judges?:o| hehe...ke tha?;oP hehe... ok enuf of bhakwash..guess will post it?? wahhahaa..gettn braver?or more insane?wahahahahaa ;oP hehe... life oh life!!wohooooo!!(listenin to that song ..by deseree?never am too sure am i?:oS hehe) dyam i wanna type more!:@..but yeah..better conserve the energy eh?;oP hehe..i better try to cook smthin before fren is here!wahahaa..sidha thees face dekhaucha!hungry man is an angry man!?:o|..does that apply to the other gender too?hehe..i dunno..me mum always used to cook and u know..cant remember her gettn mad ..it was always me :oS ..teytikai :oS..and of the worst part is i will be in the future!hah!smthins never change eh?:oS hehe.. anyways fellow nepaali..hope things are goin great there...being busy is nice eh ;o)..tell me about it ;oP hehe...and i think u shud notice the interpol ;o) hehe...dun mind the jpts..if u did read!wahahaaa..hope sane ppl are around to just skip after seeing me nick..or the length!:o| hehe.. things not too bad here...well not in whinin mood now..could be badder?duh!;oP hehe...i mean there are ppl with worst things happenin around them..and yet..yes we shud learn from them :oD..tho its so hard ..cos just seeing them doin it..is hard enuf to believe ..to do things like them?:oS..oh well..as long as we are willin to try..that shows a lot?:oD ..if we dun try ..we never know eh?hehe..yap me still tryn not to daydream too much and get lost in those many many thots that comes :oS..its hard..but yeah im still tryn!!hehe..believe me :oS tho frens have given up on me?:o( ;oP hehe... and just noticed JG bro has posted some story!!woohooo!!smthin to look foward to ;o)..for now i better do me 'chores' when i have the mood..and the energy to...see a bit sun rays passn thru those thick black clouds ni ;o)...can feel those bit of sun rays on me skin and makin me feel warm?;o)..ironically...we are more sensitive when its colder?we feel less warmth more easiy?hehe...its all good hoina ;o)...wat is life..but the experiences we get?:oD... and oh..natural white hair?dyam ur lucky!u shud see how me frens(let not even talk about family :oS hehe)..say when i tell them i wanna make me hair grey :oS ;oP hehe...yeah time will come soon when it greys..but sheesh!just wanna peek into the not that distance future ke!no patience?:oS ;oP hehe... and oh found the earrin!!:oD..tho smtimes i do question meself..why i put them on :oS..do i get satisfaction?:oS..i dunno..but i bought them so duh!dun wanna let them go to waste?;oP hehe.. and oh yah..this is ironic(to me ;oP hehe)..but the keyboard upstairs is gone!:@ :o(..and to think i had not touched it for a couple of weeks or more?:oS...dyam!guess it missed me?that it did harakiri?wahahaha ;oP hehe...yeah right most prob it had been so 'abused' then..that..urghh it showed now?:oS..pray for this keyboard tat im typin on pls :oS..i mean i would pray..but u know im not the prayn type ;oP hehe..so yeah!pls pray for this keyboard..if anyone is the prayn type ;o)..thank u ;o)..from the bottom of me heart(which is bottomless?wahahahaa...;oP hehe ..duh!how can a heart have a bottom/arse !duh!;oP hehe or does it?:oS..) and oh yah..i was supposed to go ages ago wahahaha ;oP... keep breathin everyone!:oD...if its hard...slow deep breathes ;o)..a fren told me that once ;o)..or was it some frens?:oS hehe... life oh life... oh life!oh life!.. do do do dooo.. *takes deep slow breathes* good luck and good night to all..:oD ps dun mind me ..wastin space ;o) hehe..u wont see me doin it in ur next lifetime?wahahaha ;oP hehe..one is taxin enuf?:oS hehe *gone*