To Nepe, Ashu and others: "http://www.nepalnews.com/archive/2006/others/guestcolumn/may/guest_columns_may06_08.php", this article by Subba again arose one thought playing in my mind. Shall we continue to be begging for subsistence, any alternatives to that, will it ever be possible to repay all the debts on our back, sense of guilt and humiliation that comes with it.