It mustt have escaped from the notice of particularly irregular readers of Sajha, however, Ashu and I share similar views and temperament in all other matters except the political one. If you learn more from listening to opposite views, then I probably learned more on political matters than non-political matters from Ashu. However, for a pure luck or some other reason, for more than two decades of my solitude political meditation, I happened to have a political conviction that has not YET required a revision, although the moment of truth is yet to come. That does not mean everything from my fantasy/dream/vision have come true. A lot of things have turned out to be my unreasonable misgivings. One such misgiving was about our intelligentsia or so called civil society. The way I saw it, until not long ago, our intelligentsia was either drowned in the sweet illusion of twin-pillars of democracy or were uselessly cynic about everything without being creative to suggest ways to get the country out of the quagmire of war, mismanagement and cynicism. The same went with the students. Students wings of ruling and major political parties were as corrupt, bullying and power-hungry as Mandales were during Panchayat kaal. I thought it is going to take long before our adult and young intelligentsia turns to the idea of democracy, freedom and justice. When Kathmandu's civil society took out a protest rally in June 2002 to protest the extra-judiciary killing of a pro-Maoist journalist, Krishna Sen, I thought the protest was fake. Today, when they write on the Democracy Wall "My Nepal, serene Nepal, republic Nepal", I trust their sentiments. I knew in my heart, it has to come to this point. However, I did not know, it was going to come this soon. That's where I was wrong. I am sure a lot of my beliefs as well as misgivings will be tested in future and I will keep learning from life accordingly. Nepe