girl inter.. That is what i called recover which ends when u die. Real recovering person follows recovery with full heart as blind sheep taking pracitcally to move on the recovery's path and this journey never ends till death. It is true as well, our mood is always in swings. There is certainly a way u can arrest it. One thing my too is do good to feel good. It is process which is zig zag. It is not a straight highway, one who follows must be prepared for the worst and start thinking how to act for that sitution. Just rember learn to take one step, one day at a time. Every day is just for today, make sure tomorrow never comes. If there is bullet then there must be a gun. Otherwise it is stupid to produce bullet without gun. If swami vivekananda, pramhansadev, gautama buddha, sri sri ravi shankar, mother teresa can do it then why cant u? Expectations, getting hurt etc. are all part of being human, how do you get over it? Will we ever get over it, coz dat's what we learn since our birth. Isn't it? ( i cant get over it but i can only arrest it until i die that struggle is known as recovery) There is no limitation in sacrifice but there is limitation in compromise i dont say i can be like them, i am act as if from today which will help me to get one day If i have decided to be commited on what i have believed. Even though i will not be like them, i wont have regret coz i am giving and will give 100 percent. When there is 100 percent there is satisfaction rather frustation, at least i have tried. You may say there will be expectation but before giving expectation, i prepare myself for worst secene and work on it rather than worry for it. anyway, lets keep going.............at least one from sajha is giving me a place to throw out ..........need more hope and courage thanking you and asking for more questions uhi moneyminded recovering addict forget where we are , remember where we heading