if u ask me...it does scare me to feel happy..cos after the feeln of happiness..there comes the feeln of gloom..like it or not :oD...well..that happens to me :oD..and yeah have had quite some few experiences where i realised i was feeln hyper and felt real good..tho i could not really understand why..i mean couldnt really put a reason to that 'happy mood'...and yes..later ..sooner than later...really shit things happened...things that wasnt and aint in me hands...cant stop thinkin when i get that weird mood..its a premonition for the doom later...do try to control it when i get that mood..but its hard!and hah!...oh well..those news werent and arent in me hands...so duh!lets get back to topic!!;oP hehee when im feeln pessimistic!!i feel happy!!!:oD..why?malai ke tha!:oD...guess its ironic..but its true..i mean at 1st i might feel so good..when shit mood and thots comes..but i dunno why..but i do think about it and kinda have that feeln ..a feeln that makes me think ..think its a feeln of realisation..tht in the 'end'(tho there is no such thing called the end..until one ceases to exist ;oP hehe)i be happy again..all cheered up ;o)..and believe me!i do really feel weird feeln good..for nothn!:@..but hah!in the end..thinkn about that..feeln good for nothn...it does seem to cheer me up :oD...guess im learnin to accept some things weird about me :oD..tho some ppl will wanna debate that some is the wrong word!:@ oi stop countin!:@ ;oP hehe oh preety shit feeln thinkn me pessimism spoils me frens mood...but hah!there are times im havin a ball seein them seethn at smthing that well..duh!they care!which does make me realise im lucky?:oD hehe..but yeah..aint it a happy feeln ...jokin at frens theesness..for them gettn thees at some things that..urghh i better stop!!i realised im feeln good!!and that too for nothn?:o| yes its scaryn me!!:oS hehe...good day folks!u weirdos!:@ im not the only one weird!OK!:@..u realise it one day i tell u!:@ ;oP hehe...the blame game !!cant run away from it can we?;oP hehe... oops the call!!!dun remind me of mum!!!daar lagcha to call!hehe..ironic aint it?one feels good talkn to mum like with no other..but then again smthing inside is scared to call..cos..mum being mum..they can sense smthing..that one might be subconciously tryn to hide..that one doesnt even realise or doesnt admit to?:oS...ok ok enuf said!!!i need sleep!!who doesnt eh?;oP hehe,.,dyam that caffiene!!!i knew i shudnt have had that in the afternoon!!!:@...when will i learn?:oS ;oP hehe... good day :oD..sacchi..dun freak out hai ;o)..mean no harm ;oP hehe..duh!jpt lekda..wat did u expect?than jpt!!!;oP hehe..