Thopa, I am sure there are a lot of people who can relate to your story. The key thing here is , you seem to have realize that this is not what you want out of your life.. my advise like I would give to my younger brother would be to go back to school, finish the frist 2 years in a comm. college and then apply for a scholorship in a 4 yr univ. take one thing at a time and you will be well on your way to success...you seem to be smart and intelligent. Remember you and only you are responsible to facilitate smooth functioning of your life. Good Luck and be happy ! :-))