October 19 somehow sounded auspicious to me. I pioneered preparing myself for the day without girls knowing about it. Summer was not the only hot thing that was around the Rajasthan sand dunes. There was also romance-hot and steamy. And not many will escape the trap of romance: the euphoria of love eventually hits everyone. I pulled together Dire Strait's "Brothers in Arms" hit album, got Prince's preferred sweets and then bought a card to splash out an exclusive birthday. A day passed, then a week and before I could blink, it was Prince charming's birthday. I drew together all my nerve to meet him at Aunty's Café on my own, without Sheilah and Salini this point in time. I have to say that I was feeling a bit overwhelmed with all the rethinking and reorienting I was having to do, and then that I'd become a believer. My preparation of make him obvious of my feelings was not glandulous but I assured myself that he would understand the power of simplicity. Buried in, I was pleased that I was going to speak my mind than winding up either barking up the wrong tree, or just flying by the seat of our pants without a compass. I waited for him taking the seat on my favorite chair at the cafe. Amazingly, he didn’t turn up. I started feeling edgy and timid. Naively, I asked myself- had I been doing things that were lowering his interest level without my knowing it? Because, I had no misgiving that I meant him very distinctive. God, I could spot on his eyes. It was only question of time for him to break the ice. Promptly, I had a hold over my mind saying "Naaaah! It's since he couldn’t make it there, stupid of me, how would he make out that I was keeping on there to take him by surprise". I saw Sid, his buddy appearing to the café. We girls chatted with Sid infrequently. So, I made inquiries about Prince’s whereabouts. I was downcast to hear him letting know " He left for wherever earlier and was giving the lowdown about his late return tonight". I almost felt howling. I used my guts to ask Sid to do me a favor giving away my gifts to him when he comes back. I was so wounded up with my fate that night. I was taking the weight off my feet alone in the room overhearing Madonna's "You'll see-- don't need anyone this time, It will be mine, No one can take it from me, You'll see.." The song was not taking the edge off me either. And why is it so empty and forlorn? Where did Sheilah and Salini go? I inflamed being aggravated then. It was funny when Sheilah from nowhere came in and let know “"Hey, I think I like our gym master". It was so out of context. I told to myself "whatever". “Where you guys had been the whole day?", I put forward. She told, "I was checking on Gym master (Gross!) and Salini, haven't seen her from the cock-crow". Without asking any further, I set off to bed. That awful night when No wasn't enough!! I loved Prince. I was even so living with the guilt of that day.
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