once in a while, you are criss-crossing yourself. The point is, do you care how you are treated while trying to do something for your mother(land)? If you do, then do not abort your Nepali citizenship. It sounds like you want to serve your country from a foreign land with dignity? That you can do if your mother at least is a naturally born American (or European or Arabic). Laddu pani chichi pani gahro chha, brother!