sayami, welcome to the club. Club of sajhaholics :P who are about to quit. :P This is what I have learned in Sajha, those who tell us they are going to quit, never quit. Those who quit never tell. :D I know exactly how you might be feeling right now... There is a point when you realize how much is too much. eh... Too much time wasted on sajha... I've been there and I've done that, and I am still doing that... So, goodluck with it. eh.. Clean yourself up, stay sober and stay strong. :D Sometimes even a good thing ain't worth it. :D