No One Ji, I have just given my views. They could be well analized and justified. I appologize if any of my words has disheartened you. Didn't mean it. The way I write is always confusing :), bad me. The word "you" , which I use, is general, not particularly for you (no one). Sorry for that. So what is it that keeps us tied to our faith sometime beyond rationality.. not that GOD/spirituality belong to the rational world .... why do i think that depite all the superstitions we are born into, I still respect and love my religion?? Even though our religion obviously disparages women in a million way, I still like to belive that it's chaging and it's good for me??? is it arrogance or do I have a blind, blind faith?? These are really wonderful questions. I will love to try to answer them if you really mean it. I don't know.. i am just taking out what on my mind n' heart and trying to understand 'coz in a way it's very important to me, i dont' wanna die without knowing anything... Also, if god and religion are so unreal and made up just for our own purposes why is it still there? why still so strong? Why didn't it fade out as so many other things during our civilization? JUst a thought. Good thought, good start. Thoughts themselves are not powerful they need to be transformed into action to get something tengible, perceivable. Make your thought as a quest, and do some research, theoritical (books, friends, internet) and experimental (meditation). That's the right way to go. Good start, keep going and good luck.