izen i died like 3 times laready and came back...i live with all my neighborhood ghosts....it sounds like bull doesn't it???..you're proly dead if yoiu thin k you are...a living being is someone like Mother Teresa whos presence is eternal...you or me on the other hand..after two days of sobs nobody will give a damn (oops i didn't wanna sound so harsh.that example is for me)...so we might as well count ourselves dead when i told you that isuffered that didn't mean that i have suffred the most..hell no..but the way i live is by putting my heart in my fist and walk ahead...if someone comes by a nd stabss me...i am well prepared...and if i can't defend myself well...then i will let go and bleed..but death doesn't come too easily you still have the choice until the last moment to let go of your body...pain the more encruciating the more numb you become... suffering for your own people, your loved ones...thats just relative and IZEN just KISS....keep it simple stupid...thats how life will be if you make it so.. for more answers i'll have to fit my brain cells into yours and all my experiences too to make ya get it..but you'll get it when you will have to get it...so i stop right here.