Dreams are all our imagination.We can fly in our dreams.Destiny neva appeared distant if we can dream.But every dreams won't lift us to fly like a bird.Naiveness disappeared with the gain of maturity.As people grew up life introduced them to the reality."Reality" what a word ? ,it makes me confine,wonder and thrills in every moment of my life. while walking the journey of life i came across many incidents.I had to deal with many pplz . life neva gave me the satisfaction as i had desired for ,though i was obsinate enuff to fight for it.My instinct were hardly confounded.Surviving wasn't a big deal to me but living life spiritually was always mine motto.My life wasn't free from hindrances, and obstacles ,but i was not easy giver too.Life has its own meaning and the destiny. I was always facinated towards western life as every teenaged gal.why wouldnot i be? just imagine Hollywood flicks...how decoratively directors represent the teenage-life?...they simply show, their life rockz...i was deperately anxious to experience that life .It was so full of life to me.As pplz say we always perceive things as we wanted to,This is applied to me...its not only Hollywood movies reflect good part of life, they also tries to give a message about how hard pplz had to struggle to get better life but i was excessivly occupied to enojy good side of life and that struggle side disappeard in my eyes.Neva even bother to analyzie how tricky western life could be,i was always occupied to fantacize about its sophistication...i was that extremly into the best part , bad part was vanished from my vision. Now ,here i am in the "reality".Facing the 24/7 western life.Away from my chilhood frens,college frens and everything.When i see in the mirrior, it reflects the vision i had when i was back to Nepal . Suddenly,My analytical mind becames alter and tries to talley the life i had figured out and the life i m moving through."oh Gush"!!!!!!its the only word which pumps in my mind when i remember past days and compare with the present situations .Seems like i have missed out some part of life somewhere.My brain arouse me questions about: is this want i was after ? is this what i have always dreamt for?the answers brust out as "shit" and just "sucks". Imagination drastically differs from the Reality.If imagination should be faded one day then why to have it at all? "Anyway","whatever" - what type of words are they? the easy way to comfort mind and to escape from the "reality"....BTW ,what "reality" really means? What is the exact meaning of "Reality"?.umm...can anyone define it precisely? ,anyway.... Whatever...Time to confront real life vividly...trial is an alternative,ain't it?