Fear of being rejected is one thing.....but still sometimes it's good to know the answer rather than try and try and try.....for nothing and feel bad about it at the end.>>>> yup it is good to know the answer, but the fear always remains, what would u do, if she rejects. I think, human beings are always afraid of rejection and when it comes to girls then enxiety goes high. Its better to be frens than to be rejected, at least u get somethin ni, its better than loosing a fren. You will get the answer but if its no, u will loose her, completely. (it is just a feeling that people might have) MM broda, thanx for your valuable suggestion bout love. Your experience and philosophy definately counts here buddy. ******************************************************************* That went on for a quite a time. Every day, see her, say hi and bye with a big smile. That?s not what exactly looking for, but something is better than nothing. Well, at least I can see her smile and hear her voice. After all, teenages are like that, u dun think what u r doing and don wanna think bout the result. I dunno wat it is that I wanted. She was my girl next door, and it is difficult for me to talk with her. I dunno, is that wat happens with every one?????????????? Or is that only me, who has to face that difficulty. Why was I so nervous in front of her ???????????? every day I would say to myself, I would tell today, that I love her, but every day, the words would stuck on my throat. I could not speak a word in front of her. I would just watch her, a little smile and that?s it. Days were passing in this way, I passed class 9 and its now the time to hit the nail, no matter what I do with my school and with my classes, I cannot screw up my SLC. It is the iron gate in our education system, education system only???????? Hell no, it is same with our society. Our society won?t accept u, if u fail SLC. That?s an embarrassment for every one. Every one has expectation from me. Teachers, parents, friends not to mention other relatives, they are the watchdogs. They know ur result before u know it. They know ur SLC symbol number, they seriously do. I dunno Y they are so much concerned about others but they are. It was now time for me to forget bout every thing and prepare for the ?grand final.? It was a pain in back for me. Well I believe it is for every one if u attend total of 90 days of class in ur 9th grade. And I was also not among the sharp knife in the drawer?????. I would say, blunt and rusted knife. I completely ruined my 9th grade, I always had a sword hanging on my head, when it comes to my studies. I still dunno how I passed class 9. I did, that was a surprise for me and still is. The situation was, I had to start every thing from scratch now, with my studies. Every day I thought, I have to do better this year. Better ?????????????? only better is not enough, I have to do lot better, better than the best just to pass SLC. Scary thought for me. I have to take more tuition, have to attend class every day, have to work three times more than I used to. No problem, I can do that???.its not a big deal. But the biggest problem is, I have to miss my girl next door, and miss her for a long time at least I cannot see her smile before my finals are over. I don?t have no choice than to miss her. I will miss her, for a long time.