You seem like a freshman in this country, and you?ve already started to feel the reality. Well come to the world of bitter truth brother. Try to forget those images about being a student and working happily that you had while you were in Nepal. This is how the students life in this country. You are not only alone in this quest bro; there are thousands of Nepali students like you who are working their butts off to finish their school. ?yaha ta MARERA kaam garnu parcha bhai.?(Once a guy told me) and I still remember that. You are better off in this country. Trust me! There are hundreds of thousands students who don?t have any future back in Nepal because of their financial condition. Thousands of bright students who can?t afford to pursue their studies end up going to some Middle East country to support their family back home. You know that! Don?t ask anybody but yourself if you are not better off here. You are! Again, here are some options and you can always choose one. 1. Get rid of those fat books 2. Stop looking at those students whose parents support them and work your butt off to finish what you came for. 3. Go back home. I wish #2 works for you. Good Luck!