Are you taking your wife and children if any with you ? Are they willing to go ? It seems you married just to get green card only. Do not compare to you friends and family where they are and what they are doing. Everyone has their own strength, dedication, focus and success. You are inviting and creating sorrow focusing on your friends achievements.
If you are so much jealous of them it is your turn to do something rather than running away from your own created problem.
Even Going to Nepal will not solve your problem.