@ujl absolutely true. However, how do I know what will give me peace until I try it? I don't know if I will be happy or feel fulfilled if I go home. I don't know if its my mind that is playing tricks on me. All I know is that I am not at peace right now. I have tried patience and am still being patient and not taking a hasty decision. Hence, the long contemplation on what would be the right move. An objective and sane decision to stay and have an easy life with more potential, or a emotional decision which is probably a career suicide to pursue something more than just that.
Idk, but you are absolutely right.