@all I am aware of all the repercussions. The dreams that were killed, the diversions, the expectations, the future. Sometimes I feel like getting a green card made it worse for me. If I didn't have it, I would have had no choice but to go back home. Just need that one big push to bite the bullet. Going home also would mean I would need to end my relationship here with my girlfriend since she has no intention to go back, and would have to give up my career, the little progress I have made in this last decade here. It might look like a simple straightforward decision but it actually turned out to be a pretty stressful situation. If I look at myself from a third person's view, it looks simple to even me lol. Its just hard to take that big leap of faith.

I have realized that happiness is not the destination, just a by-product of your purpose.

Thanks for all of your input.