I think most of the decisions in life are based on expected happiness. You currently feel a bit unhappy because you feel like you are not able to fulfill your duties as a son to your parents as far as togetherness and being there for them. Once you go there you may feel fulfilled for a bit but after a while there will be different things to make you unhappy. We are only human beings and our search for happiness will never end. I hope you will make a decision that you can accept.