Yep!! Its not the only day.. not the only day I spend like this. As matter of fact most of my days are like this. Here it might look quite obvious that "this" doesn't refer to something nice and you got that right. Its not nice at all. Fact that i have to go to bed fearing that I have to wake up when the damn alarm beeps even before I could fall asleep is not pleasurable. The fact that I start my day with the work "F**K" poppin out of my mouth even before i stick toothbrush in there and ending it with the same word doesn't give me sense of pride or happiness, but I guess it has been my lifestyle. I don't mean to complain, but i really need some break. Why should I be the one who has red eyes most of the time? Why should i be the one who is sleep deprived most of the time? Why do I have a feeling that my brain is bulging out of my head? Why do people not try to understand me but expect me to understand them?why do I feel that I am so stuck with this BS? Why do I feel that I am there when anyone needs me but there is nobody when I need somone? Why do I have to make tylenol my best friend? And guess whats even funnier, its not juz one day or two days, its every freaking single day I have to go through all this.

I don't have an answer. All I know is I need some break!!!